Waiting

Just think positive! Never give up!
These are the things I am told
But the goal that I want is just out of reach
And it seems I will never grab hold

I can’t help but think it might never be
I can’t help but think of the worst
It seem as though my dreams won’t come true
I’ve been shielded with a horrible curse

Now I know what you are thinking
And I know what you are going to say
“Just hope for the best, trust me
I will happen to you someday”

Well someday is too long & too far away
You can’t understand unless you know
That with a thing like this, it is too hard to wait
Too hard to sit back and let it go

Never to know the next painful step
Never to see the end in sight
Never to know if the options you chose
Will turn out to be wrong or right

But yet I keep tying and going on
Knowing that this is how I must live
Waiting to the day when the doctor might say
Samantha the test show a POSITIVE